YOU'RE NEXT!

i called the housing company i'm dealing with in massachusetts and left them a message asking them if they received the notarized CORI form and to return my call. after the ics worker left- they called me back and told me they received my CORI form and other paperwork i emailed to them and they would review it later. so hopefully this helps me get outta this state. i get the feeling that my family (except joe) assumes that if they don't support/help me get what i want done so i can get where i TRULY desire to live- that i'll just give up and settle with this resource-less uncontructive state because i'm not smart enough to do anything else. first of all- it pisses me off that they assume i'm stupid. they couldn't tie my shoes. they'd give up after HALF the shit i've been through. it just proves their total LACK of care for me by assuming that shit and underestimating me. they may try to use the defense- OH WE'RE JUST TRYING TO PROTECT YOU FROM BEING POOR AND A TOTAL FAILURE! i've gotten myself THIS far.. i've almost died, been in a damn coma for six months (the doctors DID advise my grandma and mom to pull the plug on the life support because if i ever came outta the coma- i'd be a vegetable), i've sat in a fucking wheelchair (sore ass and ALL) so my family could get sympathy for having a "quadriplegic" granddaughter (my grandma was trying to get as much attention as possible because if i were REALLY "quadriplegic".. i wouldn't be able to use my arms or hands either) for at least 15-close to 20 years.. now that i think about it- i DID own a wheelchair for at least 20 years of my life, i've lived INDEPENDENTLY to get away from this unopportunistic family. the more you assholes refuse to take the iniative to help me get where I want- the MORE it motivates me to find a way to get outta this shit. *GASP* I'M NOT JUST SETTLING FOR "GOOD ENOUGH" LIKE YOU ASSHOLES ASSUME. THIS IS MY LIFE- I DIDN'T GO THROUGH THE SHIT I'VE BEEN THROUGH JUST TO DEPEND ON SOCIAL SECURITY AND HAUL MY ASS MINDLESSLY IN A DAMN WHEELCHAIR SO PEOPLE CAN ASSUME MY FAMILY ACTUALLY CARES ABOUT ME (BECAUSE THAT'S HOW THEY'D BE IF THE FOOT WERE ON THE OTHER SHOE). let me remind you people- I'VE HAD TO BE CUT OPEN TWICE SO FAR ON ACCOUNT OF MY MOM HOLDING ME UP IN FRONT OF MY DAD WHILE HE WAS KICKING HER, SO HE WOULDN'T KICK HER. oh but DON'T WORRY! MY NARCISSISTIC BUM MOM DIDN'T GET HURT OR FEEL ANYTHING AT ALL!! I WAS THE ONE TO TAKE THE FOOT TO THE ABDOMEN, LATER ON CAUSING TWO OF MY BOWEL SURGERIES SO FAR! i'm on the path to shitting in a colostomy bag because of my selfish ass parents! my dad is dead.. so he's met his consequences. that leaves a certain selfish-careless excuse of a mother! it explains why she's never accomplished anything in her life- besides having children and she can't even protect the first one, so now they've had to have surgery after surgery because of HER! i don't mean to take a page outta cathy's book but if ANYONE needs church.. IT'S MY MOM. the spawn of satan. kinda explains why i do what i do. there's a reason for EVERYTHING i do- i don't just do shit for fun or because it looks kewliez! people need to realize EVERYONE has DIFFERENT paths and goals. if we'd have the same paths and goals- WE'D BE BORING AS HELL. remove your head from your entitled ass and realize this. NOT EVERYONE HAS IT AS EASY AS YOU DO. show support or completely remove yourself from my life because i don't need people attempting to pull me back in my progress in life FOR THEIR CONVENIENCE and/or to make them look like "good people". if you need a disabled relative to make you look like a "good person"- you seriously need to check yourself. go watch barney or something. and get out and get your damn GED instead of stalking your big sister to look for similarities in our lives- the ONLY similarity is that we both have the spawn of satan as a mother. nothing more, nothing less.